What I'm up to right now!

(last updated 5/7/26)

Personal

My life is going very well after a rough couple of months from last July to December. You know I'm doing fine when I'm back to complaining about my job and my mom in therapy, haha. After quitting the job that was ruining my life and going through my big breakup in 2024, I essentially had a year of mild mania as I discovered new communities and what life is like when you're gay, in a city, and not depressed anymore. And then something traumatic happened, and dang, my 1.5 year long sprint of fun came crashing to a halt. Now I'm over what happened, leveled out and think I've reached a good equilibrium. I'm still going out and having fun adventures, but I'm also taking time to rest and be mindful of my limits, both physical and emotional.

Often, people who meet me now have difficulty believing or understanding just how much worse my mental health was. Like, nowadays I'm the kind of person that can approach strangers at parties to flirt with them, y'know? When I used to be too scared to answer the door for pizza. One of my new friends described me as "very laid back" and, like, idk! That doesn't sound like me! But maybe my mental self-model is still catching up to who I actually am these days.

I'm also dating someone new, which is exciting! I feel weird saying more, cause like, there's a good chance he'll read this. So I'll just leave it at this: he's cute :3

Projects

What an aspirational category this is!

I have a half-baked idea about a time-loop LARP I'm chewing on, but I don't know if I want to play into more the "theater of the absurd" style activity of having my friends do the exact same actions every 15 minutes, or have it flow like more standard genre fiction, where each loop reveals something different about the characters. But I've never solo-written a LARP after, like, 8 years doing this hobby, so I wanna give it a shot.

Still working on my new years resolution (listening to 100 albums recommended by 100 different friends) in the backburner, I've only done 25 so far so I'm under par, but I'm sure in the back half of the year I'll spend the winter doing nothing but listening to the giant backlog I'm building up. And then I'll make a page on my website for them, as I do.

My boars and I might do another gamejam during the summer, though. Some kind of vibey horror-lite exploration game.

Other

Furcationland was really fun! I went with my new bf and his friends, honestly maybe one of my favorite con experiences!! A friend of a friend posted a pic of me and some pals taken at a local pup event, like, shirtless in pup hoods and all that, which got almost 1000 likes on bluesky which is crazy to me, probably the biggest post relating to me and it's a thirst trap. For my birthday me and my friends got hotpot and made clay beasts. Also: I bought the $150 winrar bag.

Reading

Book of the New Sun - incredibly bizarre and detailed world building, but HOLY SHIT this book is sexist. It was really weird getting so many people recommending it without the caveat of just, like, how sexist it was? I overall had a blast reading it, but like, holy shit, Gene Wolfe does not understand women have interiority.

Furhouse - This is a furry VN that's a spoof of reality TV shows like Big Brother where the audience votes on who to eliminate each week. The pace at which this is being written, edited, and released every two weeks based on audience voting is CRAZY, what a turnaround time. It's compelling, check it out while it's still airing! Or, uh, being written (see, it's immersive!)

just like hamburger; exactly like hamburger - Re-read this personal essay, god DAMN Tim Rogers is a talented writer. Makes me want to write more myself... I often get the urge to write things, or make art, but I don't feel like there's a story in me that needs to be told; I want to do the craft for the craft's sake, yknow?

Watching

Desprate Housewives - I'm watching this with my boyfriend, and it's DEEPLY engaging. I always merged this in my mind with "Real" housewives, and did not realize this was an insane serial drama with bizarre tone, rather than like, a reality show where nothing happens.

Playing

Pizza Tower - After THREE YEARS, I have finished Pizza Tower. I was determined to p-rank every stage in order. But it's difficult, and I would bounce of it for a few months at a time after every few stages. Honestly though, best way to play it, cause in the back of my mind I was always in a passive state of "playing pizza tower", and Peppino has lived in the back of my mind throughout one of the biggest periods of change in my life.

Blue Prince - Decided to revisit this game and explore some more of the late game secrets... I reached a satisfying ending point for me, and then just looked up the rest, and yeah, I don't think I would have ever solved some of it (mostly just due to checking spots I had thought I had already thoroughly investigated). I do wish I could recapture the fun of the very early part of Blue Prince when everything was first getting figured out, but I had fun going back to it for a while.